My emotions, are they real?
Last updated: Apr 30, 2019
Recently I read the letter I sent to myself 4 years ago. I realized some parts of me have not changed. I still love meditation and feel compelled to do it every day. But in terms of emotion, it comes and goes. It matters less and less. When emotions are elicited at this moment it might feel really strong. Now I could not remember the details of it.
It makes sense to not trust my emotions very much. Right now I might feel so in love or so angry but it lessens over time. What is important now is the presence, and it needs practice to really satisfy with the current moment.
Yet some people change over night, and they experience their true self in complete harmony. Like Eckhart Tolle, he was suffering and did not have any girlfriend. He suffered from depression too and he suddenly changed in one moment. It needs no time to be awaken. The sense of peace flowed into him for no reason. This was when he figured out he could not bear with his current self no longer.
This makes me realize there is no need worry too much about the self. They just create stories for me to believe in and I trust them too much. Often they produce negative thoughts and impulses that make me feel miserable. I should trust it no longer.